The Start of Something Beautiful

It’s finally here! I get married THIS Saturday. I’m so beyond excited for that day. As it draws closer, I’m compelled to think about from where I’ve come. If you are a regular reader here or know me personally, you know that I am divorced. I remember how it felt that day when my ex-wife informed me that she wanted to end the marriage. I can still recall how my heart broke when I got the papers in the mail and when it was finalized. In all of that, for the first time in my life, I fell deep into what Psalm 40:2 calls the “pit of despair” (NLT). I was broken, hurting, and hopeless. I was left with just a crushed soul and my faith that God would turn the situation into something good. Spoiler alert: he did.

At the end of last December, I met a beautiful woman who loves Jesus. We met the old-fashioned way— a dating app. After talking for a little while, I realized that there might be something there. So, I laid it all on the line. I told her that I would like to take her on a date, but I felt that she needed to know that I was divorced. For some, that would have ended the conversation. It turns out, she had also gone through a divorce and our stories were quite similar. 

We agreed to go get coffee about a week later. I really didn’t want to wait a week, but we decided that we would go after Christmas. As the conversation continued, she mentioned that she loves Mexican food and could eat it every day. Here was my opportunity. I told her that I also loves Mexican food and asked her if she’d be willing to go to a Mexican restaurant for dinner with me a couple days later rather than waiting a week. She said yes! This wouldn’t be the last time that she would say yes when I asked her an important question. 

The date was wonderful, to say the least. We hit it off and spent the whole evening talking. We stayed until they were cleaning everything up to close for the night. If it were a 24-hour restaurant, we very well may still be there. My heart felt something that it hadn’t in quite some time: hope. When I got home, I decided to write a couple notes on the back of the receipt. One of the things that I jotted down was, “This is the start of something magical; I’m sure.” Goodness, I love when I’m right.

From that moment on, we have fallen head over heels for each other. My heart found its match. I have never been around anyone in my whole life who has loves me the way that she does. I have never loved anyone the way that I love her. Most importantly, I see her love for God in every part of who she is. As I told her on the night that I proposed, I would be stupid not to marry her. 

God saw me when I was in the “pit of despair.” He saw my heart and knew that it was broken. He saw my soul and knew that it was crushed. I truly believe that he grieved over his hurting child. But, he didn’t leave me there. He “heard my cry” and drew close to me (Psalm 40:1). “He set my feet on solid ground… He has given me a new song to sing” (Psalm 40:2-3). A song of joy, praise, and hope. God turned the worst situation of my life into something greater than I could have ever imagined.

I’m not special. I don’t mean that in a self-deprecating way. I am simply a child of God, beloved by my Heavenly Father. That’s who you are, too. Life stinks sometimes. It can fall apart around us and leave us feeling destitute. Our hope can be extinguished just as quickly as a flame on a candle. That doesn’t change the way that your creator feels about you. He knows our hearts better than we do, and he knows when they’ve been shattered. However, he doesn’t like it and will do something about it. It may not happen the way that we think or want. I prayed earnestly that he would fix my first marriage, but that didn’t happen. Instead, he brought me to a better situation. That’s what he promises to do to and for all of us. He will always pull you out of the “pit of despair;” scripture has promised that to us.

Whatever it is that you’re going through, hang on. Help is on the way. The same hands that knit you together in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139:19) will reach down and pull you out of it. He will lead you to a new destination— one that is far greater for you. I am living proof of that. I get to marry the love of my life this weekend because God sees his hurting children, and he responds. Neither he nor his love will ever leave you or forsake you. Take my word for it. Every day that I will get to live with my wife will be a testimony to his goodness. Keep waiting on him. We don’t often know the reasoning for his timing, but we can trust that it is always perfect. He’s on his way, and he’s bringing with him the greatest blessings that you will ever receive. I know this to be true because this is what he did for me.

If you liked this, then I think that you’ll enjoy my book. You can buy it by going here. Also, I have started a His Kingdom/ Our Good podcast. It’s available on Apple Podcast, Google Podcasts, Spotify, Overcast, Stitcher, and Anchor.

Published by smith1626

I am the Director of Youth Ministries at St. John United Methodist Church in Scott Depot, WV. Mostly, I am a sinner saved by amazing grace.

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